Let Go, Let GOD.

Hello! I know it's been a long time since I've written an entry, there's a lot of catching up to do!

Just a quick fun fact, as I type this entry, I have an injured thumb. (you never realize how important your thumbs are until you can't use one!)

So wanna talk about ups and downs? Because in the past couple of months, i've experienced it all.

I went through one tough roller coaster ride, let me tell you, it was the best ride of my life!

Through this experience I didn't want to express myself on my blog or share anything because I know I was still confused, and expressing confused emotions did not feel like the best way to try to encourage people, now that i'm at a stable point, i'm here to tell you all about it!

I was put in a situation where I was constantly asking God, "if this is right, let it be, if it isn't, give me a sign and courage to change it." God's answers were never clear to me, I just continued to push through the pain hoping He would work things out for the better. While that wasn't working for me and I only became more confused, God finally had to completely break my heart.

As I look back now, all His signs in the begining were clear, I just did not want to follow them. Instead I tried to create my own plans, rather than following the path he has created for me.

So of course, being the loving one who cares for me, he broke me, led me to my knees, and here I am today, standing strong with my arms open, praising him.

If I hadn't been put through such a dark time in my life, where I completely lost myself, and let darkness consume me, I would have never been able to experience the happiness and love life is offering me today.

Letting go of everything and putting it in God's hands, putting all my trust in him, was one of the best decisions I could have made.

I knew after all the sadness, emptyness, heart ache had passed, I would learn to be happy again, I just never knew it could completely transform in such a short amount of time.

If you're on a roller coaster ride like I was, know that it is happening for a reason, and a happier life, definitely awaits you. It may not happen in the same way it happened for myself, slowly but surely, God has a light in that darkness for you, just leave it to Him.

Through the struggle (now my biggest blessing) I had an amazing support group, and quickly I'd love to thank my family and friends who held me up when I couldn't do it on my own! For my next post I will go further into detail about how thankful and appreciative I am for those who prayed and loved me through it all. Always remeber how important relationships are with those who love you, they can make the biggest impacts!

Talk to you soon! Don't forget things happen for a reason! And such dark times can later feel like the greatest blessings! :)