SO I PUT MY HAAAANDS UP!
Hey y'all!
Oh my goodness, you guys don't know how excited I am to be writing here right now!
I stacked all of my pillows behind my neck, stretched my legs out and now I'm here on my lap top! This is my favorite thing to do, relax and write.
OH! And I have my cheetah blanket also. ( I love cheetah).
Okay so I have some pretttttty exciting news to share today!
First, I am done with finals! Whoop Whoop! Y'all know how much I dread school. And I did well, which is awesome!
I'm also getting a second job to save up for an apartment or condo! I'm making grown up moves as I'm growing up and I think it's time to spread my wings and be own my own withing the next year and a half or so.
I will be working two jobs, and going to school. How exciting is that?! It sounds so grown up I had to share. For those of you who are already doing that, give a sista some advice, i'm sure i'll use it!
Now for the best part! I shared this news with my family and I wanted to share with you too. About a week ago I walked into the living room where my mom and little sister were just chillin and I said, "you guys, I have to tell you something, I am finally happy. I'm happy with my body, where I'm at, where my head is, I'm finally happy!"
Let me tell you, it's been a MINUTE since I've said that!
If you've read my previous blogs you know that I have struggled with gaining weight after I had lost so much.
Every day I heard the words, "omg Yvonne you're so skinny". It wasn't in good, complimenting way either, it was like a scary skinny. Like a girl, you gotta eat skinny. Being so stressed, even without knowing I was stressed, really showed on my body.
For about a year and a half I became so insecure with my body. I couldn't look in the mirror for too long without getting upset. I looked sick, therefore I felt sick.
If you want to read more about it, feel free to read my previous posts, I want to get to the happy part now!
You guys! I'M HAPPY! I can feel it. I want to throw my hands in the air and twirl around in ten circles and sing "Party in the USA" by Miley Cyrus!
My mind is in a healthy place and my body is getting there too! I've gained ten pounds over the last six months! That's A BIG DEAL FOR ME! I feel comfortable and confident. Of course I don't think I'm the SUGAR HONEY ICED TEA. But I can admit I feel good, my body is filling in and my cheeks are looking chubby.
No longer do I feel sick when I look at myself or see myself in pictures, I look like a healthy, happy girl. That means SO much to me.
I've made really small changed in my heart and mind and they have done the biggest thing for me.
A year ago I thought I'd never overcome my weight and body struggle. I didn't want to eat, i didn't have the energy to make healthy changes, but today I'm here to say that has changed for me.
I actually enjoy my meals now. One after the other, let me tell ya, I enjoy my meals. I mean I ENJOY them. Even second servings are showing up on my plates! ;)
My family is so in shock also, they're always like "daaanng Yvonne you're going for seconds?"
"YEAH GIRL I'M LIVIN HAPPY AND HEALTHY DONT YOU GET IT"!
Anyways, I know this isn't it. There's still so much I want to improve within myself. Everyone has things their insecure about that can really take a toll on their living. I hope we can all overcome those. I think it all starts in your heart and mind first. Your heart and mind has to be in a healthy place in order for everything else to follow!
Thank you guys for reading, and seriously thank you to those who read. You will never know how much it means to me. This outlet of writing has helped me so much.
Till next time! <3