Thank You
Hello! So for those of you who read my last post (if you haven't you definitely should :)) I said I would be expressing how thankful I am for those who were with me and encouraged me while I experienced a little roller coaster ride.
Through this time I could not find the strenth to hide my pain from the people who know me best.
I'm pretty sure I cried all the salt water out of my body, although it was a sad time for me, let me tell ya I am so sick of crying I don't think i'll EVER do it again!
Okay maybe not EVER, but it'll be a while :)
From my parents, to grandparents, my sisters, best friends, to my hair dresser, I could will never be able to express the love and appreciation I hold in my heart.
Nothing compares to a mothers love. Waking up my mom at odd hours while she enjoys her beauty sleep, just to have her hold me, rub my back, scratch my head. She cared for me like she always has and always will. But she also had to be stern with me, and build me up to be as strong as she is, and as strong as she believed I could be. My mom sent out prayer requests to all her lady friends, and I know God heard them.
To my mom: Momma, I love you. Thank you for for loving me the way you do, and pushing me to be strong. I promise I won't move out any time soon.
My dad and I have a type of father-son relationship, sometimes I think he forgets I'm a cute, sweet, little girl! Going through heart break I never would have imagined opening up to my dad about it, because I know it wouldn't make him the happiest seeing his little girl hurt. I was shocked that my dad was so understanding with me and said everything I needed to hear. There's nothing like the care and love my dad shared with me through this time. He held me, sat me down to have my favorite "life" talks with him, he kissed my forehead before he left work, I could hear him pray for me with my mom. My dad raised me to be strong and when I was weak he made me big deep and find that strength he has planted in me since I was a little girl.
To my dad: Dad, you said things to me that morning you kissed my forehead that I will never forget. The way you cared for me, and told me you raised me as a strong lady, I will always hear those words when things get tough. Thank you for everything, and raising me to be a lot like you, I love you.
Some of you may know my sisters, most of you may know Domo a little better. Yes, Domo is two years younger than me, but dang! She seems like she's five years older. She carries herself like a very mature young lady and there's a lot I learn from her, and a lot I was able to learn from her these past couple of months. And my little sister Vivian, she's 12 and she's like a little light of mine. Whenever I'm down she makes me laugh like no other, to the point where I'm slapping the floor and crying!
Sisters: Good thing mom and dad had two more girls, because you girls mean everything to me! I know I fall apart as a big sis sometimes but you girls always pick me up and I will always do the same for you. I love you both SO much!
Through the years I have grown really close to my grandparents. My grandma is like my best friend, just a little older. (sorry grandma, you still looke 21) I go over to their house often and spend a couple of days there. While I talk about movies with my grandpa and he chases my grandmas chickens around, I have the best time. My grandma and I had a moment where I broke down to her and she just stopped what she was doing and held me in her arms. She said the most comforting things to me.
Best bud and Grandma: I love you both so much and I know you love me to because I'm the favorite. I've had the best time spending time, laughing with you, and sharing moments where you both teach me so much.
As for my best friends. I've always known I had the best of friends. During this time they really, I mean REALLY, showed me how blessed I am to have these friendships.
Dana, Lexi, Alyssa, Deanna, Jamaal: You all know how appreciative I am of you and how much our frienships and relationships mean to me, they mean everything. Once again thank you, and I love all of you more than you can imagine!
Through these moments and times where I've had to lean on people everyone said it hurt them to see me so hurt. I never wanted anyone to be hurt through my pain, and I am strong because of all of you! Thank you so much for holding me while I was sad, and laughing with me now that I am enjoying life! Without all of you and Jesus Christ, I'm sure things would have been much different. I am forever greatful for the love, prayers and care that was shown to me. I would do the same for all of you and anyone in a heart beat!
If you are struggling, going through a bump in the road, do not hesistae to open up to the people who know you best. It is okay to be seen as weak sometimes because you can only grow from it.
Even if you're at a place where everything is fine for you, still continue to appreciate your family and friends because they are the ones who will be your rock when you break down!
Most importantly know that with God ALL things are possible, without him, and everyone else in my life, I'm not sure what I would be writing to share with all of you today.
I love you all, until next time! <3