Soul searchin'

Hey y'all!

So since my last post, this is a lighter, more laid back, topic.

I have to vent, and release some stress by saying...20 IS THE MOST ANNOYING AGE EVER!

Woooo. That felt good. :D

I feel like at this age we're too young to have our lives set, but too old for them not to be.

I'm struggling, going crazy trying to find the happy medium.

I'm the type of person who is not okay with just "going with the flow", "livin' day by day." No, not me.

I have to have something set in my mind, and figure out what steps I need to take to get there. Often I find myself completely overwhelmed with trying to plan each step in my life with complete details, and I'm realizing now...that's not working for me.

Going with the flow has never worked for me, but trying to plan every step perfectly isn't either...so here's where I put my trust in God and follow the path he has ALREADY set for me.

Sometime's I tend to forget that there's a path that has already been set for me, and he knows every step, move, road block, mountain high I'm going to face. It could all be so simple to follow his lead, but why does it get so difficult for me?

I think a lot of people might agree with me on this, if you don't, message me so we can talk and I can see anothers point of view. :)

I believe the main reason why I feel so wrapped up in thinking about my past, present, and future, (especially future), is because I feel like there's a lot of pressure on me. Along with putting pressure on myself, the rest of the world seems to have extremely high expectations for someone my age.

We should be going to school to get a degree, working a full time job, buying our first car, making payments, maintaining friendships, and enjoying our lives.

For the young adults who can manage and find a balance between all of that, more power to you!!!

As for me, I see that happening in my future, just not now. If it were easy, I'd love to start my life career now and work my way up from there. I want to know exactly what I'll be doing in ten years, start now, so that when I reach that point in ten years, I would almost perfect it. But, it isn't that easy.

I've decided as of right now, I want to experience all of the things I'm passionate about, and see what life has to offer. I want to fulfill the things I'm passionate about, such as writing, blogging, youtube channels, getting to speak to different people, traveling, and stepping out of my daily routines that i've become so comfortable in.

If you can relate to this post (hopefully you can't and you have your mind set), then I say, sit back, relax, and let your soul do some searching. Of course we should be at a point now where we can take care of ourselves, but let's also fulfill our passions, and even find new ones. Let's enjoy these things life wants to offer us, instead of trying to find what we have to offer the world. I believe in doing this new opportunities, passions, and blessings will come our way, and after we have experienced the things we dream of, THEN we will follow our path to success! :)

WHO'S WITH ME!?!?! lol.

Hopefully this works for me, if not, i'm lost y'all! But i'm following his path, not mine.