ohhhh happy daysss!

HIIIIII!

Hehe, so it's been five minutes since I've published my last post, and i'm back already!

I was looking at some of my earlier posts from months ago, and realized how open and emotional I was with you. I thought I might take this opporunity to update.

For those who have been following my posts, or have taken the time to read through them, first of all thank you, and I hope you enjoy them. If you have been following, you know that I went through some pretty dark times this past year, and even more recently a couple of months ago.

I'm sorry it has taken me so long to open up and share my heart, it's a very scary thing for me to do. I try to be as honest and open here, and real to those who read.

As I try to figure things out after going through such heart break, a lot of things are still confusing to me, and that's what makes opening up hard, because I don't want to confuse my readers. I cry because i'm afraid i'll be judged with decisions I make, or actions I may show. I would pray that everyone understand that I am only human. Although I wish I had a superpower mind that can tell me what roads I need to take for my future, unforuntately I wasn't born with that. In fact, my family wonders sometimes if I was even born with a brain, so superpowers aren't even close to me.

I have nothing but good news to share today. I finally feel like i'm at the best place in my life. After going through such a dark time, overcoming is one of the best feelings, and I have been set free.

I will always be greatful for going through such a long period of darkness, tears, and sleepless nights. Without those days, I would not be the woman I am proud of today.

Today, I stand taller.

I am stronger.

I have learned the true meaning of forgiveness.

I am happy.

I am healthy.

I am learning.

I am growing.

I smile and laugh, more than I cry.

I actually fall asleep at night, and have happy dreams.

I experience pure good times with my family and friends now.

Most importantly, I've experienced a love that I have never felt before.

And that's falling in love with Jesus Christ.

I can lift my hands up and twirl around, because of the love and mercy he has shown and shared with me.

Like I said, things are still confusing, but even on those off days, I can smile and know that i've been set free from heart ache.

Earlier I had a thought..and i'll leave you with this,

Heart break led me to falling more in love with Jesus.

My heart has never been as joyful as it is through these days.

I have truly, found, my light, in darkness.

So remember, everything happens for a reason. Don't ever give up. Keep going, and that light will find you.

I love you guys.

Till next time. <3