One step at a time

hey y'all.

Last time I was here I made a misake.

I announced that I would be going back to school to study journalism through ASU's online program. Since I work at Starbucks I was under the impression that all employee's got accepted due to their parntership with ASU, WRONG.

Why I assumed that? I don't know, I was excited and i'm a bit of an air head when it comes to common sense; such as anyone getting accepetd to a university, it doesn't happen.

I was hopeful, for sure. Anyways, I didn't get in.

Senior year of high school, I quit. I stopped going after my dreams and dropped everything I had going for myself, for a boy I loved. And a couple days ago that came back to haunt me when I got denied from college.

With that, I was sad. Disappointed in myself. I'm constantly putting my life on hold for others, and so far I haven't experienced any good from it. Of course, there's nobody to blame but myself, and that is who I blame.

Instead of putting myself down and dwelling on the bad decisions I have made in the past, I've decided to learn from it, and move on from it. I've accepted the fact that I will have to work twice as hard for what I want. I will have to stay focused, set goals, and do everything I need to do to reach my dream of becoming a journalist.

I'm here to write this to you, so that those of you who read, may keep me accountable, please.

Often I let myself get so distracted and steer away from what I want my future to look like.

As I take these new steps, and pray for God's guidance that he may lead me, I will keep y'all updated. When my days are hectic, when stress takes over, when I cry and want to pull my hair out, and the end of the day, writing my feelings and experiences brings me back. It keeps me at peace, so I hope that you will be able to enjoy reading about the new steps and experiences I will face as I make some changes.

Please, keep me accountable.

Thank you to those who take the time to read my writings. I don't know what is next, but when people let me know they're reading it means everything. It also catches me by surprise because most of the time while my fingers are typing I have no idea who I'm speaking to. It almost feels like I'm writing for myself and hoping it'll serve a purpose one day.

If you're reading this, I'm not sure if I can explain this in a way you'll understand, but I so deeply appreciate it. Sometimes, I may not have much to say, but every time I decide to write here, I share my complete heart.

I hope this can encourage you to always follow your dreams. We all experience road blocks that have been set in our lives for a purposes to test us. It is our decision to learn and move past those, only to reach YOUR dreams.

It has been set on my heart to share this experience with you, only i'm short on time. Forgive me if I have typos! I'll be back soon! <3