breath of fresh air!!! :))))

Hey y'all!

I know it has been so long since i've posted here. In some ways I feel as if my blogging days might be coming to a pause for a while.

Unless people request me to write or I have something I need to share that I feel people can benefit from, I feel like there is not much I have to say these days. I am completely content with that. At the same time I know there are people who trust in me to come here and write, and I will, just not as often.

You guys I have been the happiest I have ever been in my twenty one years of living. (My birthday is in April so basically 21) (still 20 thought).

But yes, it is the most refreshing thing. It feels like I am breathing new air, seriously! Although I have never lost myself as a person, I have seen such a brighter change in my days! I feel as if I am finally growing up and learning how to focus on the goodness of live.

In my bad days all I did was focus on the bad, I couldn't get myself away from it. My attitude, the way I carried myself, my thoughts and my habits were just very poor. I was very angry at things I did not need to get myself angry for. When things seemed to be picking up and going good for me, I would find something to be angry about. It was just such a rough time of trying to figure things out.

Now, of course I cannot say that if something tragic, or I faced an obstacle these days that my days would shine so bright! No, that isn't the case. BUT i've learned so much about myself and I try to handle situations differently. There's really no other way to explain it or how to do it, other than it is just apart of growing up. As my days pass I see things differently and learn to not let negativity effect me. If it does, it is only for a moment. I've learned to be a bigger person and not involve myself in troubling situations. It is sooooo awesome! I have never felt better.

I think this change has a ton to do with the way my lifestlye has changed as well. I'm working more often, I see my friends and hang out more often, and i'm going back to school. I tend to keep myself busy and make use of my days. Rather than sit around and watch TV and let my neagtive thoughts control my emotions and well being.

I was in such a funk and at the time I had no idea. I thought everyone else was wrong, but really I was the crazy one. (I know it's hard to believe, me, crazy? Yeah right). I mean crazy as in the way my mind worked and the way my thoughts ran, opposite in the direction I was working towards.

Now, I am following my path. I am doing what I love to only continue to do more things that I love. I really just feel so refreshed and happy and I thought I would come to share that with you!

OH! HOW COULD I FORGET! One of the biggest things I have done which has helped A TON was delete my social media apps! I am hardly updated with my twitter and instagram. Now i'll be going to twitter to link this blog update, but other than that I haven't caught up with social media. LET ME TELL ya it is thaaaa bombbbbbbb! I make so much more time to do useful projects and carry conversations and think about my days and feel the sunshine! Really, it has been such a relief to not be constantly refreshing my apps!

If you're feeling just "blahhhh" about the way life is going. Try some changes. Stop what you always do and try something new! I hope you enjoyed this post and I hope you can relate. I promise that when I have something to share I will always come here to express myself in the hopes that we can relate!

TTYL! :)